A female letter to male

My name is fe-armale . I am created to fear the male and obey his command. I am constantly reminded that I was made from his rib. If I do not worship him, he may take his rib back . That would be the end of my life. I am indebted to him for giving me life . God created him. He made me. He is my minigod.

My body is not mine but an extension of his. I do not own myself. My dad own me. He could use me to settle debt or offer me to his male visitors for pleasure. . He could give me out to any man in marriage without my consent . I must open my leg at his command and must remain in the union no matter how toxic. I must please my husband, brother and son for they are my moral obligation.

I try to dress in a way I feel. I am instructed to cover every part of my body. For my body is a temptation to the men. The same body I got from their ribs. I must surrender to his request no matter how illogical it seems. Every time I attempt to by myself, I am shamed for being such an ingrate.

Unti I got pregnant and gave birth to my son, I realized that men came through the legs of women.My eyes are open to reality. I was deceived . I have repressed myself yet you males do not appreciate me. You guys are insatiable. I weep because I see many girls who are still victims of the tale. I have had enough. I will violate the good girl code. I will deviate from the norms of the society. I will be Authentic.

2020- A year of anger

Anger flows in the land. The people are walking like a ticking time bomb waiting for any little fuel to ignite the internal flame. . The citizen stayed at home in an empty stomach to comply with the COVID-19 lock down order. The government wants her citizen safe from the virus. The citizen is threatened by hunger. A hungry man is an angry man. After the lock down, the organization laid off her workers. The hungry citizen are jobless. Anger is doubled. Officers of the Nigerian police force continued to be brutal. A joyful person could tolerate a certain percentage of pain. An angry person already feels pain. He seeks to eliminate the pain on the stomach and the pain of joblessness. He needs no physical pain from the local authorities. One little trigger was sufficient to ignite the pain he has been repressing. The youth protest began. It spread from police brutality to bad governance and then looting of warehouses.

Some Christians diverted their anger to God. They felt a sense of betrayal for not being protected from the massive job loss despite obeying all his commandment, rules and ritual. They felt used and dumped by the creator. Staying at home without going to church did not end their lives. So why bother going? A gradual loss of faith.

Others diverted their grievance to the clergy. Few church leaders launched an online platform for tithe collection. A hungry and jobless Christian threatened with eternal punishment for not paying tithe is the last thing an angry person expects from the religious leaders. Members expected the church to feed them the way Christ fed the five thousand. Their disappointment led them to swear not to go to that church again.

Anger like Joy, hunger, or sadness is neither good nor bad. It is an emotion to be felt. Anger can be a fuel for transforming one’s life. We need to be angry at our present circumstance before we can act to change them. Righteous anger is when we feel the pain of the oppressed and try to stop it. when we are angry, we feel it calmly to understand its source. Impatient anger could lead to violence or Hasty decision when we lash out instantly.

Righteous anger is speaking against the religious practice that is harmful or religious leaders that abuse their trust. Jesus vented his anger at the religious leaders in his time. He called them hypocrite. He scattered the moneymakers in the temple. He stated that his life mission is to free the captive. That includes those in religious bondage. He was not operating from hurt targeted at him. It was not a revenge mission. He was interested in uplifting humanity. Examine your anger holistically.

We hope 2021 would be better

Guess the emotion (A)

Everyone has felt me

In moments of threat or loss

I am like fire

To burn and to heat

Courage to be true to oneself

Channelled for a noble cause

To hurt and cause injury

Creates respectful boundary

Stand up against opposition

Say no to injustice

Injure our relationship

Strength to die for ones belief

Sparks creative ideas into action

Guess the emotion (1)

Why do I perceive you as a threat

To my important relationship

Why is my esteem shaken

At the mention of your name

Why do I imagine the worst

Whenever you are present

Do I retreat to my shell

Repress it and deny it’s existence

Do I keep close tab on you

Or go tell at the rival.

Unwilling to discuss the situation

Like the feeling is useless

Inner Guidance

What I feel is my Creation

What I see is my reflection

What impacts me is my attraction

Showing me something that needs my attention

Negativity are precious present

Bringing me to self awareness

Reminding me of my mission

To learn life numerous lesson

To trust the learning process

As I forgive my mistakes

Struggles are signs to let go

Of my need to control

Dig inside to find my true self

By shattering the veil of my false self

Empowered feeling signifies right track

Pleasant emotions are positive feedback

This mindset provide opportunity for growth

As I embark on a journey of self love

To the bestie that fell in love with me

I wanted us to be just friends and I told you from the very start. Some how we got closer.You began to feel something for me. I did not notice at first. Your jealousy increased I played it cool. Now you have opened up. I know Iy must have been difficult for you to . Now I cannot pretend any longer. We need to talk about it .

I do not have to pretend to feel the same way as that would be dishonesty on my part. I do not want to turn you down abruptly. For that would bring an end tovthe wonderful friendships.The awkwardness is what I am trying to manage now so we need loose everything.

I am sorry If I gave you any signal that I would be interested in taking decision is to the next level.

I need your affirmation that you can handle and accept the situation without feeling embarrassed and return to normal friendship without avoiding each other.

I promise not to tell any third party about this disclosure.I would tune down any flirting signs I might be giving unknowing

In memory

While I was away from you,.

my world did not stop to move

.why I  showered you my wholehearted love

Still remains a mystery yet unsolved.
We weren’t meant o last forever

But to propel each other to a heights greater
While we were apart , 

I became much happier and better
The land is greener on my side

I wish you a glorious ride